KillJoy

I'm not feeling it this year.
This has always been my favorite holiday, my favorite time of year. I've always been in the Christmas spirit, singing songs of cheer, baking cookies, decorating my room...
But I don't know what happened.
I think the fact that we very literally can't decorate my house is responsible for part of the problem. With the renovation on the upstairs, we can't decorate. I mean a tree would look pretty weird in a totally empty room with the floor halfway done.
But I also blame the weather. I don't think Christmas should be able to come when I can walk outside in short sleeves. I'm sorry; but that just seems rude.
I went to a Christmas parade tonight, and just sat there wishing I was at home.
It's sad really.
You know; when we're little we count down the days until Christmas. We make charts to cross the days off with. We update lists and reupdate lists.
And this year: Today I realized with a start it was December 6th, I help the littles make the charts, and I don't have any clue what I want this year.
It seems as though it has somehow crept up on me, like it isn't as big of a deal as it once was.
And that's really annoying.
Like, I'm very annoyed that no matter how many times I smack myself in the head I can't seem to get with the program this year.
Christmas songs get on my nerves for some reason this year. I don't know why.
Lights are annoying since they aren't up in my home.
There's no baking happening over here.
It's the 6th of December.
Where's the Christmas cheer?
I'm afraid it might have been inside that wall that got torn down...
(I knew we shouldn't have taken it down!)