Music

I've found that even though words are my refuge and even though, they're how I express myself, I've found in times of absolute desperation, that I seek music. I seek music because it says all the things my heart feels, and that words can't say.

Even music that have words, (7x70 by Matt Maher and Haunted by Taylor Swift are my favorite songs with words right now) the music makes the words deeper. It tells the story behind the story. And if it's a good song, you can hear the inflection in the singer's voice and the sorrow or joy behind it. 

You can hear the story. 

What I love about songs is, you can adapt them to your situation. Any song I listen to, I find a way to look at it from the POV of my own life.

Music is what is saving me right now, in a time when I'm truly confused within myself. I'm a teenager, struggling with friends, and social outlets, and school. And when I feel like I need to scream within myself or at someone, I turn on my ipod or my radio.

I actually started falling asleep to music about a year ago. I found a Christian radio station and every night around 10:00 I turn it on. There is nothing greater than falling asleep to the sounds of music. 

Music shows me who I am, where I am, and what I need to be. It shows me beauty, and sorrow, joy, and heartbreak. 

It shows me, me.